Have you ever had something so good going for you in your life, but some how you manage to mess it up? Sometimes i feel like that. When we are not successful we strive to be on top, but once we reach it or get really close to it we end up messing it up and fall right back on the bottom. I am terrified of my self-control. I am afraid i won't be strong enough to hold on to my goals and just let go. Staying positive is not always as easy as it seems. No matter how great some one's life looks, it might not always be how you imagine it to be.
We all need that escape once in awhile. Sometimes life gets so complicated or busy there is no escape. Certainly someone so young like me shouldn't ask for one. I am at my peek, i should give it all i got. What is the amount of time i am allowed for this escape? A day? A week? A month? Or is this escape i am searching for a life time?